I know it's been a little while....

Ok, I know it's been a little while, but there is A LOT going on at our house lately. Crazy schedules, crazier teenagers, studying, tests, sickness, spring breaks, and the list goes on. So I am a little preoccupied and overwhelmed. BUT, today God overwhelmed me with HIM, so I had to share. Here it goes....

I don't always listen so well when God speaks, simply because I can't always slow down and be quiet enough to hear His voice. So many, many, many times when He has something to say to me He either shows me a picture, or speaks to me through song.  Well today....He did BOTH all at once. Isn't He amazing?!
Anyways, the picture was beautiful, and almost indescribable. I looked up into the sky as I was coming up the mountain through the gorge, and saw the most beautiful site.  The sky was a gorgeous shade of blue, but there were tons of clouds moving so quickly across the sky. I couldn't believe how quickly the clouds were moving. I was literally mesmerized by the sight. I had my sunglasses on because it had been sunny, but since the clouds were dark and moving in so fast, all of a sudden it seemed darker. As beautiful as it was, then the really pretty part showed up.  The sun that seemed to be covered by the clouds all of a sudden broke through the clouds. You could see the rays burst through. Big wide bands of light forcing their way through the clouds. The picture was amazing enough, but then God said "LOOK Libby!" The SON was forcing His way through the storms/clouds of my life. No matter how dark it seems ever, HE can always SHINE through.  AND, the storms looking from a distance moved really fast. My storms that seem to overtake my life, are just a little blip on Jesus' timeline.
Once I got a hold of myself....then I noticed the song on the radio. It was "You are I Am" by MercyMe.
Check out the words....

I've been the one to shake with fear
And wonder if You're even here
I've been the one to doubt Your love
I've told myself You're not enough

I've been the one to try and say
I'll overcome by my own shame
I've been the one to fall apart
And start to question who You are

You're the one who conquers giants
You're the one who calls out kings
You shut the mouths of lions
You tell the dead to breathe
You're the one who walks through fire
You take the orphan's hand
You are the one Messiah
You are I am
You are I am

I've been the one held down in chains
Beneath the weight of all my shame
I've been the one to believe
That where I am You cannot reach

You're the one who conquers giants
You're the one who calls out kings
You shut the mouths of lions
You tell the dead to breathe
You're the one who walks through fire
You take the orphan's hand
You are the one Messiah
You are I am
You are I am

The veil is torn
And now I live with the Spirit inside
The same one, the very same one
Who brought the Son back to life

Hallelujah, He lives in me
Hallelujah, He lives in me
Hallelujah, He lives in me
Hallelujah, He lives in me

All of that was true for me at some point in my life. I questioned if He was there, or listening, or paying attention, or cared about me at all. I was one who was held down by the chains of my shame, my past, my crap. I believed I was out of His reach.  Just because I forgot who He was.  Let's look at that chorus again...

He conquered giants....so why wouldn't He be able to deal with my LITTLE mess?

He calls out kings...so why shouldn't I trust the call on my life?

He shut the mouths of lions....so why wouldn't I believe that He could close the mouths of my accusers?

He tells the dead to breath....so why wouldn't He heal my broken or hurting heart?

He walked through fire....and I think my mess is too much for Him?

He takes the orphan's hand....so why wouldn't I believe that He would want to reach out to me and draw me in?

You are I am....my literal mind couldn't compute that at first, but He is my everything, then, now, and forever.  Hallelujah, He lives in me!!! Thank you Lord!!!