I even checked out online dating. I wanted someone to talk to, someone who didn't know me (or my story) to think I was interesting. I wanted to be someone different than I had ever been. I tried dating a bad boy, an older guy, a younger guy, a guy with kids, a guy without kids...none of it was right. No matter how much I didn't want to get attached to anyone....I still longed for that. I was made to be a wife, a caretaker, a lover. I liked having someone to care for, someone to love, someone to lean on. I wanted more.
I truly believed that God didn't plan for me to be alone. Or for my girls to be without a dad for ever. I didn't want to rush into anything, but I wanted to try to be truly happy one day. I didn't NEED someone to make me happy, but I wanted someone to be happy with.
But it wasn't quite time just yet.....
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